Let me preface this by saying I hated my boarding experience in high school. I do not have fond memories, don’t even care to be part of that school and quite frankly I told my mum after the fact that they should have transferred me when I asked in Form 1. Anyway, recently, there was… Read More Boarding School and Collective Trauma

Sometimes I go back to read what I have written and I am like “have I evolved/changed what I think about this certain matter?”. For example, this post. I have come to realise that in many cases we can justify anything to ourselves. We can make a case that we don’t desire to be seen,… Read More Justifying Being Seen

Because I write when events are not good, I must use the same energy to talk about when events are dope. And people, The Heng was good times. And I’m not even talking the performances which in and of themselves were dope. This post is mainly about the experience of being there: Check in, Vibe,… Read More 90s, Dancing and Safety

If I see one more post about how the decade is coming to an end and we should like do these many things before it ends – I will pull one hair out. Honestly, the messaging on productivity as worth, busyness as lifestyle – even things like goals that seem to promote capitalism get on… Read More Listen, I am Irked

Dear Ciiku Alcohol is delicious. Start drinking it. Upgrade your taste buds. Sushi is bomb dot com. Don’t stop dancing, ever. Society wants you to keep obsessing over your body, as if you should hate it as a way of living, as if the pursuit of thinness is some sort of virtue: let that shit… Read More Letter to a 22 Year Old Ciiku

I cleared out some documents over the weekend. Of course this meant going through things I’ve carried with me from my dorm room in high school, from the US, from the house I mostly grew up in to here where I currently live. You better believe I kept the success card from my high school… Read More Nostalgia and Rose Coloured Glasses

At times we project arbitrary notions of morality on other people because they refuse to confirm to societal norms. I’m contemplating how I consume and react to content I come across. Either by reading, listening etc. For example consuming other peoples reactions to things and being able to not internalise their reactions as my own.… Read More Things I am Thinking About